To Die For

Like the black plague

You came into my life

Paralysing every part of my body

But my heart.

An epidemic I never wished for

An epidemic I could have never intended for myself

Or anyone else.

An epidemic I watch growing inside me

An epidemic I carry with me

and contain others with

While containing myself from the cure

Merely to keep the momentum between

love and death alive by killing

Myself

For living without you. 

Τσιαττιστοφιλίες

Ο παππούς μου σήμερα ήθελε να μου πει κάτι. Σημειώστε ότι έκαμεν εγχείριση πρόσφατα τζαι επιάσαν τον τα υπαρξιακά του. Όι πως τον αφήσαν τζαι ποττέ...

'Έλα δα να σου πω'. Τζαι ξεκινά:

Ώσπου 'μαι εγώ ης τη ζωή 

Έψαχνα για αγάπη 

Μα δυστηχώς επλήρωνα 

Άλλους εγώ τα λάθη.

Που'να πεθάνω

Εν θέλω αγάπη μου να κλάψεις 

Μα ούτε τζαι στον τάφο μου

Καντύλη να μ'ανάψεις.

Γιατί εν ναν τα μάθκια μου κλειστά 

Τζαι εν θα μπορούν να δούσην 

Με πιοι με αγαπούσασην 

Με πιοι που με μισούσην.

Και του απαντώ:

Σταυρή μου άκουσα σε να μιλάς 

Για Χάρο τζαι καντύλι 

Μα εξιασες πως έζησες  

Τζαι μια ζωήν αργύρη.

Εσού έθελες γρουσάφι   

Τζαι το αργύρη εν σου άρεσε 

Μα το γρουσάφι εν βαρή

Τζ'η διεκδίκηση του σε βάρεσε.

Νομίζεις πως η ζωή σ'αδίκησε 

Τζαι νιώθεις λυπημένος 

Μα μεν νομίζεις πως εν εύκολο 

Να είσαι ευτυχισμένος.

Θέλει δουλειά τζαι υπομονή 

Τζαι πίστη τζαι ελπίδα 

Γι'αυτό αντί να'σιεις παράπονο 

Καλύττερα ασπίδα.

Περί ζωής και θανάτου, αυτά είχαμε για σήμερα.

Σταύρος Δημητρίου και η Ελίνα σας.

     

Feed the monsters.

I've been trying to kill these monsters for years.

At first I didn't know they were there [so you can imagine my surprise when I found out].

Then I thought 'It's cool, I got this' [I used to do Tae Kwon Do so nothing scares me].

But then, I realised that the monsters were heavy and big and intangible. So there wasn't actually a way for me to defeat them. I swear I could have used a gun to kill them but there really wasn't a violent enough way to deal with it. No kicking, no stabbing, no shooting would do.

Until one day, high as, I realised the monsters were in fact baby monsters in disguise. They have the ability to do that you know; transform into something bigger than they really are.

So now I'm tryna feed them love and help them grow. They say they're not hungry but they haven't eaten in years. From anorexia to greed, they will soon grow dead.

Str8

I straightened my hair today.
I don't think anyone noticed
but if they did, they didn't say it.

That's the case with most things we notice. We don't say we've noticed them so they remain unsaid; not unnoticed.

Easy to confuse the two though.
Right?
    I mean it's easy to assume that the unsaid has been unnoticed but not vice versa.

   Anyway,
I noticed the tape stuck on your mouth.

I'm Blue.

No-one mentioned I was suffering.

No-one said I was depressed.

All they ever did was look

and say how much they were impressed.

Being my parent wasn't easy.

Being my parents' parent was as bad.

You know that I am lonely- 

I know myself is all I had. 

My lover boy approaches

But I ask him not to touch.

I say I don't do feelings;

About love I don't know much.

I can feel him coming closer

and this time I'm not afraid.

In fact maybe I should thank him

For providing love's first aid.

In our minds we are together

And I'm sure we'll be one day

Then again today's Blue Monday

So I don't think that day's today.