'Forgotten Dreams'

I'm listening to fall-in-love music and I wonder if I ever fell in love...

Actually, I have fallen in love, but have I ever loved?

If I had I'd known, wouldn't I?

Sometimes I feel so intensely for some people. An explosion; the butterflies...
and I wonder if that's what it is- and whether I will have the chance to experience it fully.

The Result

[ http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=C-p5vvkNGK4  

(Don't give up until you see the result)]

Rocking back and forth on the beat of a song, hoping my heartbeat is as synchronised as this melody-

while my eyes water.

My eyes water

in the realisation 

I've made it through.

I've made it through

the good and

the bad.

The bad

that was

cruel to my heart.

Cruel to my heart

and inconsiderate of

love.

Love

which was used and

abused.

Abused

by those who could not

live up.

Live up

to the greatness of

a challenge.

A challenge

whose only test is

its journey.

Its journey

which makes you want to 

give up.

Give up

and think your efforts were 

wasted.

Wasted

for not giving you enough in 

return.

Return 

to innocence and see

the light.

The light

that can only be seen at 

the end.

The end

Turning Tables

You've been tripping between what you have
what you want
and what you could have.
The three could co-exist with efforts and mutality
but the promising thought
guarantees the latter two.
However, the risk of losing what you have
which could,
potentially,
be combined with what you want and
what you could have
is tricky.
So do you go for what you want,
or make what you have be what

you could have?

Cz we only play 'all in' when we've

got nothing to win.