Friday, 25 February 2022

Modern History

 We are strong.


Morning coffee in the car

And yet there's a war that just broke out.


Somehow through history books it all feels 

current and it's happening in real time.


Crazy.


Shaky.


I'm quite scared to be honest but happy to 

be able to blog while I drive to work.


Technology.


But if I lost my loved ones I couldn't bare it.




Tuesday, 22 February 2022

So what?

 I could imagine a world where you progress but don't advance.

And where you think outside of the box

But I could never imagine not being able to make visible

< Transferable skills.


Ideal.


Love for whatever I do,

Care for the task,

Consideration of the other

Of their interests

And of the path

To the outcome.


Ideal.


I deal with a lot.


Sometimes all I think about is James Corden. Not the popular one - but my first mentor. He was the absolute inspiration. And made me who I am today. He taught me to teach as part of any work process. To ask 'so what' and always get to the next answer. What is it that you want to say? Employers always get it if you're answering their questions. They're the ones who set them. It's like an untold yet unhidden truth that most fear to express freely. Yet it's the core of communicating your work personality.


And James unlocked this in me.


And I unlocked this in others.


And that's how you improve.


You just ask.

Monday, 21 February 2022

Word press in bass

 Surely I should have been an acknowledged blogger by now


Someone who touches the heart of the viewer creating the image of these words in their own colours and shapes.

Someone who touches the heart of this reader as much as is accessible and intertangeable.

Someone who creates words.




And then again, someone who forgets big and small events of life,

Who is found in the middle yet center of their own gravity,

Who longs but has not longed in a while.

Someone who fears Altzheimer's but can spell it,

And someone who really, really, can't make sense of the burning love and loneliness that should have found a shelter by now.


What is life, you learn it all and can't implement as much of it.

Ripped out pages 6|11 (year unknown)

Like A River


 I can hear the cold

and feel the warmth

of this moment

up the hill.


I climbed it;

my personal pilgrim,

and it feels personal

and mine.


One of the few things of mine

that have not .been invaded.

One of the few things of mine

that I can still protect.


The rest of my things,

I couldn't.

My family, my sexuality, my brilliance,

my heart.


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h5jz8xdpR0M

Monday, 13 April 2020

Done

I'd only shine when I was striving
It's like I'm weak but I'm surviving
I learned to swim cz I was drowning
And now I'm here to keep rewinding

Looking back I used to cling,
Attach myself to all the things,
to all the queens and all the kings,
And to the chords and all the strings.

Now I'm cutting all the chords
Not with violence, not with swords
Just with quiet peaceful words
Coming from regards of wrongs.

no sentimental lyrics

no sentimental lyrics
can do justice
to the relationship we have.
'you're like two pieces of the same person' said sproul.
and it stuck with me - 
now i know where to look when i'm feeling incomplete.

you raised me
in vibration and years
we met somewhere and never unmet
again.

sometimes your worth is seen
in the effect you have on the people
and look what you've created;
me.

your rays can't be measured
because some eyes haven't seen
your worth.

if you do the math you'll see it 
it all matches
and we didn't even have breakfast yet.

you know

anything you wanna ask me,
you already know.
...you know.

if you wanna ask me what's for dinner

tonight
you know.
we're having good food.

if you wanna ask me where I was

today
you know.
i was somewhere not far from you.

if you wanna ask me what i heard
today,
you know.
music and the birds.

if you wanna know what i saw today;

i saw me talking to yoy.