Feed the monsters.

I've been trying to kill these monsters for years.

At first I didn't know they were there [so you can imagine my surprise when I found out].

Then I thought 'It's cool, I got this' [I used to do Tae Kwon Do so nothing scares me].

But then, I realised that the monsters were heavy and big and intangible. So there wasn't actually a way for me to defeat them. I swear I could have used a gun to kill them but there really wasn't a violent enough way to deal with it. No kicking, no stabbing, no shooting would do.

Until one day, high as, I realised the monsters were in fact baby monsters in disguise. They have the ability to do that you know; transform into something bigger than they really are.

So now I'm tryna feed them love and help them grow. They say they're not hungry but they haven't eaten in years. From anorexia to greed, they will soon grow dead.

Str8

I straightened my hair today.
I don't think anyone noticed
but if they did, they didn't say it.

That's the case with most things we notice. We don't say we've noticed them so they remain unsaid; not unnoticed.

Easy to confuse the two though.
Right?
    I mean it's easy to assume that the unsaid has been unnoticed but not vice versa.

   Anyway,
I noticed the tape stuck on your mouth.

I'm Blue.

No-one mentioned I was suffering.

No-one said I was depressed.

All they ever did was look

and say how much they were impressed.

Being my parent wasn't easy.

Being my parents' parent was as bad.

You know that I am lonely- 

I know myself is all I had. 

My lover boy approaches

But I ask him not to touch.

I say I don't do feelings;

About love I don't know much.

I can feel him coming closer

and this time I'm not afraid.

In fact maybe I should thank him

For providing love's first aid.

In our minds we are together

And I'm sure we'll be one day

Then again today's Blue Monday

So I don't think that day's today.

Define.

The trouble with defining is trying to define...

As Devine;
I define
Your presence in my life.

You are by me.
Everywhere,
Even when I'm not there.

In the darkness,
in the light,
when I think of you at night.

You are here
So I say don't let fear
Make you disappear.

Because you are defined-
As the one I'm
Trying to find.

Munchies.

Hang on a sec...

Waiting patiently

forever

for Ever.

Ever never comes

and they say

never say never.

Never say Ever

feels like forever,

ever.

Cz Ever's  

never gonna come;

Unless you wait forever.

Twinkle Twinkle little spark.

Someone who holds my hand,

who cares enough to check on me,

who understands my weirdness,

who shares my fears,

who excites my heart beat,

and I excite his.