I want to apologise
for wanting you to be mine
when you already are
in a relationship
with
your
girlfriend
and partner in life.

i want to apologise for wanting 
something that isn't 
mine or anyone's 
or on offer at all.

i apologise for freezing 
when I see you
i have no words
i have no feelings
my heart gets tangled and i don't 
know
why
i'm apologising for something
that comes naturally 
and wants to shower you
like water
on a hot day.